I'd really like to just Amazon Prime my baby now, please.

There are very few things in life that we have to actually wait for. If I wanted to take a spur-of-the-moment trip for the weekend (and had the finances to do so) I could buy a plane ticket and be airborne within a couple hours. Between Hulu and Netflix, I can watch a plethora of television and movies "on-demand." With a wi-fi connection and computer (or even just a smartphone on its own), I can go from wondering something to finding the answer in mere minutes. I can purchase almost anything I'd want and have it within two days with Amazon Prime.

So this whole notion of waiting 9 months for our baby is a little . . . uncomfortable.

Even when I tell myself, "You're halfway through!" or "Only 20 more weeks!" I still think, "Seriously? 20 more weeks? We still have months left to go?"

Even when I remember that we're creating a human being from very little raw materials (that 16 weeks ago the baby was the size of a poppyseed and now it's the size of a banana, etc), it still feels like a terribly slow process. For realsies? The baby isn't even a pound yet? After 18 weeks of gestation? What's it been doing all this time? There's really nothing else I can do to grow this baby faster?

I spend too much time looking ahead to what will happen in the coming weeks. There's a vlogger that I like who had her baby in the summer of 2011. I enjoy watching all her videos and had thought that I would watch her weekly vlogs in accordance with my own weeks (watching her 13 weeks pregnant video when I was 13 weeks pregnant, etc). Of course, since her baby was born over a year ago, I know how the story "turns out" but it's still fun. But . . . it's pretty hard to stick to just one at a time. I find myself saying, "Well, I'm 20 weeks pregnant now, but in her vlog she was talking about what happened during the timeframe from week 19-week 20, so if I want a preview of what I can expect in this coming week, I should really go ahead and watch her 21 weeks vlog . . ." And it just snowballs from there. Suddenly, each week I'm watching three weeks ahead, and at this rate I'm going to be watching her 6-month postpartum update by the end of my pregnancy.

I feel like it's the second trimester doldrums around here. After the anatomy scan on Friday, there won't be many big developments for awhile. But what's tough is knowing that the waiting is going to get so much harder! I'm already having trouble sleeping and feeling sore all the time. And I feel huge. Being uncomfortable as I get bigger is only going to make me more impatient for Bambin@ to arrive.

Sigh.

I'd even pay for the one-day shipping, if I could.